I am reviewing my journal. I’ve kept one off and on for 22 years. This entry is an excerpt from January 2002:
"The beginning of a new year is always a good time for me. I like to put last year behind me and start a new schedule. I like to have a new calendar, correspond anew with friends and family….
My reading of late has spurred me on to spend time praying and concentrating on dying; the kind of dying where my will is crucified and Christ takes His rightful place on the throne in my heart, ruling this body of mine, His temple. Taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ is a moment by moment endeavor. "Pray without ceasing" is a given, in this scenario. We are getting back to the routine. My schedule is a constant reminder to focus on my calling as keeper of the home and to practice planned neglect. Forgive me Lord, for neglecting the wrong thing today…
Thank you, Lord, that you give me the privilege to inquire in Your temple. Make my one desire that I may dwell in the house of the Lord; Your house and that I may behold your beauty.
When I am in trouble, whether or not of my own doing, hide me in Your pavilion."
A Psalm of David.
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh,
My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war should rise against me,
In this I will be confident.
4 One thing I have desired of the Lord,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the Lord,
And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock.
6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me;
Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, "Seek My face,"
My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
9 Do not hide Your face from me;
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the Lord will take care of me.
11 Teach me Your way, O Lord,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord